gone mad

1/12/13, 10.00pm

on certain nights where i can't sleep
i'd grab my favourite pillow
put it right beside me
and talk to it
stare at it
like as if it was you
because i believe
that even though you're not
physically here with me
you're mentally here with me
spiritually here with me
and by that, i mean
you're always there, you're everywhere
so i'd talk to the pillow
like how i usually do to you
sometimes i'd cry on it
like how i do on your chest
because i truly believe
that you are going to be here for me
whenever i need you
even when you're not exactly where i'd be
you'll always be in my mind
you'll always be in my heart

i've gone mad
but i'm addicted to you
and i need you everyday
every second of my life

just to keep me alive